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Jan. 21st, 2012 | 12:17 am
location: 90715
music: Radiohead - 15 Steps

I miss my friends and family.




I am such an unremitting asshole.

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Jan. 20th, 2012 | 05:38 pm

I am so tempted right now.

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still sober

Jan. 20th, 2012 | 12:46 pm
location: 90715

I need to buy an air horn.

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john pacheco

Dec. 22nd, 2011 | 09:53 pm

I'm listening to "Vesuvius".


I love and miss you John.

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i love it

Dec. 22nd, 2011 | 08:28 pm

I miss singing.

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my; I

Dec. 22nd, 2011 | 06:42 pm
location: 90715
mood: recollecting
music: Holy Mountains - SOAD

My....I'm not drunk enough to express most of my emotions. My journal is going to be the only outlet for now. Drunk posting is my love. Slowly; I'll be submitting my thoughts and yes, I'm aware that my expressed thoughts are fragmented.

I've forgotten my nutty self and increased the level of self-loathing. I'm not suicidal. I haven't been for quite some time and that was the only reason why I had used meth. Not out of pleasure, just the desire to die. I drink because I want to erase my memory and it's not happening. Most of the counselors (LCSW, MSW, whatever) that I've encountered couldn't give a blue fuck. I knew that this would happen.

I just hate that these things have been happening to folks that are close to me and they won't listen to me because I'm an unrelenting drunk foaming at the mouth with righteous indignation. Who listens to us?

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this made my day

Dec. 22nd, 2011 | 03:53 pm
location: 90715
mood: giggly giggly




And no, I'm not gonna resize it.

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(no subject)

Dec. 19th, 2011 | 12:24 pm
location: 90715
mood: awakening

I was finally able to talk to Amber today. I'm greatful. I thought that she may have been indisposed. Turns out, everyday for the passed 5 days, she has had to call paramedics to her attention for every day that she has been trying to detox. She's at her sponsor's home and I hope the best for her. I'm just ecstatic that she answered my phone call. I've been trying to reach her from my father's home since I've had my cell phone on "vacation hold" for the passed 3 months.

I told them that I was in the Cayman Islands =0D

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this is what i always do

Dec. 16th, 2011 | 11:30 pm
location: Lakewood
mood: disgustipated?
music: scratching my head vigorously

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(no subject)

Dec. 9th, 2008 | 03:02 pm
location: 92503
mood: nostalgic nostalgic
music: huh?

I miss this.

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